A Survivor’s Scream

Do you really understand?
You say you do,
but I can see in your eyes
that you cannot read
between the lines,
so if you really understood,
I wouldn’t have to spell it out

Besides, when I stood
before you as a youth
telling you my truth,
you rejected me

Where I’ve been,
what I’ve experienced –
the sights, sounds, smells,
pain, brokenness –
the colors of the institutions
isn’t something you understand

You think words like
fuck and shit are offensive
So when I enter a room
and instantly connect
with those you can’t
I see the condemnation in your eyes
the same looks
those like you
gave me when I was a youth –
daggers of self-righteous condemnation
emitting moral vomit,
puking your credentials, expertise,
and religious verses on us survivors
that we’ve heard so many times before,
but you’re not even strong enough
to listen to the truth we’ve lived
because that would interrupt
the delicate images in your mind
of how we’re supposed to be,
and cause you to miss our beauty –
the truth of our perfection
forged in fires of hell

We talk because we need to
not because we think you understand,
not because we think you’re listening
because you’re too busy
trying to protect yourself
from the realities
of a survivor’s scream –
a scream you cannot recognize
when you hear it,
and so you’re also blind
to
those
Sacred
moments
when
healing
is
happening

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The Sacred Bundle of Light

It was a time of great difficulty for the people. There were wars, rumors of wars, famine, unwholesome reasoning, unskillful desires, contrived malice, drugs, alcohol, and a thick fog of hopelessness that began to take over the land. It was a time when many no longer believed in their own voice, so they couldn’t believe in the voices of others. The people wanted things to be different, yet they attacked all those who thought or acted differently. It was a dark time when rumors, gossip, and other forms of violence held the people’s attention, while peace, healing, and solutions were mocked. Warriors were perceived as cowards and cowards were perceived as warriors. Drugs, alcohol, violence and jealousy were treated as friends, yet friends were treated as enemies.

In the midst of this great despair many cried out to the Creator for help. Since no prayer ever goes unheard or unanswered, the Creator immediately sent help. The Creator sent a sacred woman to the people. The sacred woman carried a sacred bundle of light that was to be gifted to the world. The sacred bundle of light she carried contained the answers to the prayers of the people, as well as the memories of what human beings are, so that we could once again see ourselves and each other as nothing less than sacred blessings, miracles and gifts.

The sacred woman’s journey from the heavens was a much shorter trip than the journey she took after she arrived on Earth. Once on Earth, the sacred woman had to endure many things on her journey to deliver the sacred bundle of light to the people. Before the sacred woman was given the sacred bundle of light to carry and deliver to the people, she was first given the highest possible levels of love, gratitude, fortitude and resilience. The sacred woman was met with the violence of those difficult times. She endured many disappointments, attacks, betrayals and condemnation. The sacred bundle of light was given to her to deliver to the people because the Creator knew, that although she will experience pain, and she may stumble, she would never be detoured by the mental, physical, spiritual and emotional violence that erupted upon the land during those days. The sacred woman was charged with delivering the sacred bundle of light, so the darkness of those times held not even the slightest chance of victory over her.

Just as the Creator had done for her, the sacred woman did the same for the sacred bundle of light. She placed all that she is within the sacred bundle of light before delivering it to the people. Through the sacred woman, life, love, fortitude, resilience, and the answer to the prayers of the people were lovingly wrapped inside the sacred bundle of light.

Coming close to death, the sacred woman delivered the answers that the people cried out for. She laid down her life and the Creator delivered the sacred bundle of light through her. The sacred woman is your mother. The sacred bundle of light she delivered to this world is you.

Unravel the sacred bundle of light you are by opening your heart and being a vessel thorough which the prayers of others are answered.

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Stop Sitting in an Empty Courtroom Demanding a Retrial

For years I heard the voices of ridicule, critics, meanness, and hurt. I replayed them over and over again, especially in situations where amazing opportunities were presented, which of course led to sabatoge, self-sabatoge, and projecting that hurt onto others. Then one day in prayer I was reminded by God that I have just as many recordings of compliments, encouragement, inspiration, victories, and love; and I am in full control of the station, volume, and playlist in my mind. I asked God to filter out everything not of God from me, and I began to hear goodness, love, encouragement, inspiration, and love again – even from the voices of those whose loving and encouraging words were far and few between, but at one point or another they did say something positive. 

Sitting Bull has been quoted as saying, “Take from the road that which works,” and the only thing that will work is love. 

I had the great privilege and blessing to interview John Trudell before he passed away, and in our conversation he must have repeated this at least ten times, “It’s okay to like ourselves. As human beings we need to like ourselves. We might not like everything we’ve said or done, but we need to like ourselves to honor Creator and all of creation. It’s okay to like yourself.”

You have always been and will always be loved.

You have always been and will always be forgiven.

A Course in Miracles says, “Only my own condemnation can hurt me.” Stop sitting in an empty courtroom where you’ve already been declared innocent and demanding a retrial!!!!You are innocent!!!!

You are free!!!!

Accept it and remind the rest of us sitting in empty courtrooms demanding a retrial that we’re free, too!!!!

Yes, like and love God, and like and love what God created – you, You!

Ask the Creator of your understanding to rid you of any thoughts that are hurtful about you. Tell the truth about you to you. The truth doesnt hurt, the lies do. The truth is that you are a sacred blessing, miracle, and gift. Anything else is a lie. Stop replaying the lies. 

There is nothing humble about disagreeing with the Creator. The Creator made you wonderful, intelligent, handsome, beautiful, creative, and with wonderful gifts to share with all of us. 

There is nothing arrogant about agreeing with the Creator about you, and claiming it – replaying it until the truth is louder and more consistent than the lies. 

You are sacred.

You are a blessing.

You are a miracle.

You are precious.

You are a gift. 

You are amazing.

You are loved.

You are God’s precious child created in God’s likeness and image. Clean the mirror and change the station to see and hear you as the love you are once again. Be humble and agree with God’s truth about you again, so you can see all others in the same miraculous love we all are. 

~ Walk in Beauty,

Anthony Goulet

God Doesn’t Choose the Qualified

You’ve agreed with God and have been chosen to be here in this space and time to use all of your gifts and talents to bring healing to this world.Yes, you’re that important. 

You’re a sacred blessing, miracle, and gift.